These Days

It feels like it’s been forever since I had Pink Drink Tuesday with my girls. It has been over a month, and I was happy to slide back into our comfortable routine this morning, even if I found myself missing the boys more than usual as they spent their first day back at HSA. 

These days are slipping away. They are coming to an end faster than I’d like, and I actually found myself getting choked up as I looked across the table at my big girl today. In August she will join her brothers at their enrichment program, and it will be just Mable and I sitting in our little corner table with the sunshine warming our backs as we giggle over pink drinks and silly selfies. Eleanor won’t be there pretending to think about it really hard when I ask her “What should we do with our day?”, as if we don’t already know. She won’t be skipping at my side as we leave the school, or begging to go to the make up store, or excitedly announcing “I see them! I see them!” when we are waiting in the pick up line...She’ll be with them instead. 

I’ve gone through this before. Long before “Pink Drink Tuesday“ was a thing I had “Tuesdays With Bash“ where I’d spend happy afternoons with my youngest boy after dropping his big brother off in the morning. And, unlike when I was anxiously approaching Bash’s kindergarten year, I am confident that Eleanor is more than ready to join her peers in the classroom. I’m just not sure that I’m ready to let her go. 

I know this won’t be an end to Pink Drink Tuesdays. That is a tradition I still hope to be carrying on when my precious girls have their own little ones to bounce on their knees, but it’s going to change. It’s going to evolve into something quite different from what we have now, and while I am sure that what we will have will be just as beautiful as what do have , it doesn’t make saying goodbye to these last months any easier. 

Of course, I’m also a sentimental sap who is crying just writing this even though August is seven months away, so that probably doesn’t help either.

Do you like my new pink cup? It was my Christmas present from E. We’ll always have Pink Drink Tuesdays.